On the way into the show thestaff frisked me and found my loose j in my tube sock. Depression continued. Stood up in the balcony just wanting to go home.
Runway Jim jogged something in my head... I felt weird (totally sober). When 'Bouncing Around the Room' started, some pretty hippie chick grabbed me by both hands and we bounced for the duration of the song. The entire audience bounced in those days. I smiled for the first time in months.
Caught a buzz and went down front. Fluffhead cleared all my depression. It was orgiastic. Just hard to describe. I was not just free from my depression, but empowered. I felt like superman.
I wrote to Phish after the show and told them what happened. Mike sent a post card back that simply said: "Those that go down can go higher up..."
I've had an amazing life since then. All first shows all special. This was very very special indeed.
For a post script, see my review of the show last night at Riverbend 23June2012. All I wanted to hear after all those years was Fluffhead. Was having a bad day that only a married dad in suburban hell can have... I asked on facebook for some special Fluff therapeutic magic to cure my ills. Save me again boys, you did it once... And they play Fluff as an encore. The first one since 1990. Check out that show. Another 5 star whopper.
The best band in the world, bar none. Easy.
Written with much love